It’s life, and life only
Each Sunday I like to do non-economic posts. Those coming here for monetary analysis will probably want to skip these.
I will be participating in a seminar on “the good life” this fall. And that got me thinking about what it means to think about the good life. And the more I thought, the more convinced I became that the human mind is not capable of thinking about life in its entirety. It’s too big. Everything we’ve done or thought or read since day one is a part of life. Life is everything. Perhaps it’s one of those topics like consciousness, or why is there something and not nothing. We are too close to it, and can’t see it from any “perspective.” Life? Compared to what?
You might be thinking “but surely some lives are better than others, and we can talk about the reasons why.” Yes, but in that case I don’t think we are talking about life, but rather specific aspects of life. We can talk about the best way to change one’s oil. Nick Rowe can give us advice on that. We can talk about what sort of world music to listen to. Tyler Cowen can give us advice. We can talk about how to raise children, and Bryan Caplan can give us advice. We can discuss which flavors of Ben and Jerry’s ice cream to buy. Or when to break a promise that you’ve made to a friend. Or when a country should re-neg on a gold clause (which turns out to be very similar to the discussion of when should you break a promise to a friend.) But an expert on “life?” Don’t make me laugh.
Because life is such a big topic, I think people make the mistake of trying to reduce “the good life” to a few parameters. People will say “It’s all about family and friends.” “It’s all about being yourself” (including Jeffrey Dahmer?) “It’s all about finding inner peace.” No, inner peace won’t help me figure out how to change my oil.
In On Murder Considered as One of the Fine Arts, Thomas DeQuincey wrote:
A golden mean is certainly what every man should aim at. But it is easier talking than doing; and, my infirmity being notoriously too much milkiness of heart, I find it difficult to maintain that steady equatorial line between the two poles of too much murder on the one hand and too little on the other.
That’s going a bit too far for even me. But I wonder whether most discussions of the good life make the opposite mistake–by denying the complexity of life. Would we be better off in a world without vice? It’s hard to say. That would presumably mean a world without the works of Shakespeare. On the other hand I am reluctant to encourage vice, and once again DeQuincey gives a good reason:
For, if once a man indulges himself in murder, very soon he comes to think little of robbing, and from robbing he comes next to drinking and Sabbath-breaking, and from that to incivility and procrastination. Once begin upon this downward path, you never know where you are to stop.
2. My mind has a mind of its own
When considering how to live a good life, I constantly run into two problems. The first is deciding whether I am currently living a good life. For instance; am I happy? Am I moral? That’s hard to say. Some days I think I’ve had a good life, and other days I look back on my life as almost unrelenting misery. How can I trust either perception? Even worse, these perceptions are highly correlated with meteorological conditions. On sunny days, it seems like I’ve lived a good life, on cold drizzly days it seems miserable–I can hardly remember having any enjoyment at all. (I plan to retire in LA.)
And how can I trust my decisions? As I look back on life I wonder why I did certain things that now seem like a monumental waste of time. Around 1981-83 I spent hundreds of hours reading Bill James, and then pouring over obscure baseball statistics. What was that all about? I have no idea. I imagine on my death bed I’ll suddenly recall that I “forgot” to read Shakespeare’s sonnets, or listen to Beethoven’s late string quartets. And then I’ll think back to Bill James. Should I trust the mind that instinctively leads me toward certain activities at certain ages, or the mind that tells me that something’s a waste of time? I suppose I should use Freudian terminology here–but that’s another book I “forgot” to read.
I think many of us see the good life in terms of setting goals and going for it. But another recent book I read casts doubt on that straightforward American credo. Robert Walser wrote a series of essays/stories on tiny pieces of paper, while in a Swiss mental asylum for the last 20 years of his life. They are very short, mere fragments. One story is called The Demanding Fellow. It begins with a solitary man, who enjoyed consuming sights and sounds:
Splendid was the way, for example, that interesting building which had played a role in history were mirrored in the still,color-suffused water of remote canals. This, as well as other things, struck him as lovely and charming enough to devour.
Then he met the woman of his dreams:
He idolized her, bedecked her with precious robes and bejeweled her hands with ornaments, obeying his own demanding nature, which to be sure was a form of egotism, something like an unchristian act. In any case he was standing, as he found he had cause to confess, upon the pinnacle of the fulfillment of his desire. And yet for this individual who constantly longed for something out of the ordinary, the happiness he achieved was a sort of calamity, such that he gradually came to regret finding himself so abundantly satisfied.
All his longing, how he longed for it again.
It’s always seemed to me that happiness is the expectation of future happiness. Thus:
Ut = Et (Ut+1) = Et(stuff, leisure, love, fame, etc, in period t+1)
But Ut is not equal to (stuff, leisure, love, fame, etc, in period t)
Does this mean that to be happy we must continually fool ourselves? Or do I belong in an insane asylum with Robert Walser. I’d be interested in your thoughts on either question.
PS. Off topic, but I’m barely old enough to remember what pop culture was like in 1964. Recently I listened to a Bob Dylan concert CD from that year, where he played the song that I got this post’s title from. I can’t even imagine the reaction of a 1964 audience to this (and Gates of Eden.) I’m guessing it would have been like my reaction to seeing 2001 as a 12 year old. Dylan’s real breakthrough wasn’t going electric, it was the acoustic side of Tyler Cowen’s favorite Dylan album.
Here’s some more lyrics from that CD:
Yes, to dance beneath the diamond sky with one hand waving free
Silhouetted by the sea, circled by the circus sands
With all memory and fate driven deep beneath the waves
Let me forget about today until tomorrow.
If only.